Anxiety and Panic Attacks

I don't think I officially introduced myself in my earlier posts. My name is Matt and I live in Liverpool, New York (Syracuse Area). I am 28 and have a great guy in my life. My partners name is Sean and we have been together for over 4 years now. I am a Restaurant Manager for Denny's. I went to college for Business Administration and seem to stay in the restaurant industry. There is something else that not many people really know about me. I have Anxiety and I believe Panic Disorder. I have yet to be diagnosed because I am never really fully honest. I have been on anti- depressants but they don't fully work for me, I still have anxiety. I actually took myself off them a year and a half ago and thought I was starting to feel better but in reality I was getting progressively worse. Everyday my stomach would be in knots and I would end up vomiting. The drive to work is barely tolerable. I started losing weight. I get the panic attacks because I think about them. I think about them meaning, I hope I don't have one but the thinking about it tends to cause me to panic. I just recently started getting anxiety when I'm stopped at a red light. Especially if people are next to me and I can't go anywhere I feel stuck. I've learned that is called Agoraphobia. I feel fine when I'm home, its when I'm not is where I get anxiety and/or panic. Mt first panic attack was when I was 23. I had partied all night with friends and we were on I-4 in bumper to bumper traffic. All of a sudden my mind started racing and I felt really weird. I ended up burying my head in my friends lap. That was the beginning of something that has changed my life forever.